Road Blocks

What am I doing? What are my plans?
I know that it all lies in God's hands;
But in this moment I feel discouragey.
The millionth time throughout this journey.

Is it realistic? A waste of my time?
This being time that's not only mine.
Am I the only one who benefits from this;
And what is it I gain from this experience?

My dreams are many, and all over the place.
The worry this makes I hide from my face.
A thousand road blocks in my life I have laid.
Most by me, and some by they.

Still I have pressed on with doubts all about it-
Relying on my strength which lies in my whit.
It may not be soon that this will pay,
But still I press on this confusing way.

For when I am old, or older than I feel,
I'll look back and admire my will.
I'll be glad this is the path I have taken.
Thankful my grit remained - never shaken.